The first day was the worst for me as well. Just being in a new environment that is regulated like that can be quite scary. I remember the facility being so cold upon entry which made me even more uncountable.

The prodding, questioning etc was extremely annoying for me. Seeing all these people waking around just have me so much anxiety because I feltlike they were much more far gone than I was. I later looked at it as a blessing for me going so soon before I irreparably became someone I am not.

I think the whole rules thing got to me too. There were literally like 100 rules and some were birthday impossible not to break. I never understood why they had so many but I guess that helps with discipline.

In all my first day sucked too but it got easier day by day. Just not great